One thing that I do find impossible to tolerate is that I have become an object of pity! I just hate those pained expressions and the meaningless phrases that usually accompany them and I am tired of explaining what happened (at this stage we really don't know as we are waiting for reports and results). So when you do encounter me rather give me some good news or make me smile.
A week before Tony died I read an article in Fair Lady magazine in a book called, "Proof of Heaven" by Dr Eben Alexander. It appealed to my keen interest of our human mind. I immediately downloaded the book on Kindle not knowing what was waiting for me or how it would impact my being - and it was sitting there waiting for me three days later when I switched it on. Is that a coincidence or is it proof that what happened was truly wired into the universe and the blueprint that it holds for each one of us?
This is what Amazon says about the book "Dr. Eben Alexander III has been an academic neurosurgeon for the last 25 years, including 15 years at the Brigham & Women's and the Children's Hospitals and Harvard Medical School in Boston. Over his academic career he authored or co-authored over 150 chapters and papers in peer reviewed journals, and made over 200 presentations at conferences and medical centers around the world. He thought he had a very good idea of how the brain generates consciousness, mind and spirit.
In the predawn hours of November 10, 2008, he was driven into coma by a rare and mysterious bacterial meningitis-encephalitis of unknown cause. He spent a week in coma on a ventilator, his prospects for survival diminishing rapidly. On the seventh day, to the surprise of everyone, he started to awaken. Memories of his life had been completely deleted inside of coma, yet he awoke with memories of a fantastic odyssey deep into another realm - more real than this earthly one! His older son advised him to write down everything he could remember about his journey, before he read anything about near-death experiences, physics or cosmology. Six weeks later, he completed his initial recording of his remarkable journey, totaling over 20,000 words in length. Then he started reading, and was astonished by the insights his journey brought to the world's literature on near-death experiences, and to all phenomena of extended consciousness. His experience clearly revealed that we are conscious in spite of our brain - that, in fact, consciousness is at the root of all existence.
His story offers a crucial key to the understanding of reality and human consciousness. It will have a major effect on how we view spirituality, soul and the non-material realm. In analyzing his experience, including the scientific possibilities and grand implications, he envisions a more complete reconciliation of modern science and spirituality as a natural product.
He has been blessed with a complete recovery, and has written a book about this most powerful, life-changing story."
The book has left me with a strong message - that when we die we truly do go to another realm and in that space you know that:-
- You are loved and cherished
- There is no fear
- There are no mistakes.
That is all the comfort that I need right now.