What have I been up to??? Well I have been back in PE since March and keeping myself busy. Busy I have to be because I was not designed to sit still or really to be on my own - I find both challenging. Browsing back through my journals one evening I came across an entry that had written a few years ago that said."I guess my biggest fear is loneliness - I need constant proof that I am alive and for me I am only alive when I interact with others." Little did I know then what my future held but as I remind myself daily - I am here to learn lessons and this is my biggest lesson yet. Learning to be satisfied with my own company. Many of you will protest that you love being alone and I do too for a little while, but anyone who lives alone will tell you that it can be tough. What works for me is planning my day, my week and my month so I have things to do when I am not working.
Where I have been?
Out and about in PE catching up with friends and familiar places and some new ones
PE continues to amaze me with its talent - Delicious lunch and coffee at Vuvotelo (which is now all over SA but originated here), Divine berry crumpet stack at Life with Lemons, where the food and service always makes me smile. This time I wandered into the neighbouring stores and found a lovely shop called Fabulous - which is exactly that! I also had the pleasure of listening to Nicky Cloete Brasse at the Autism fundraising afternoon tea - wearing blue for autism from head to toe in support! Nicky is one of PEs greatest talents and it's always a joy to be entertained by her. Then Mellars beckoned - a new Dim Sum and Noodle bar that did not disappoint and is now on my list of favourites. Problem is the list is getting longer - so much food so little time!
Who have I met?
Apart from reconnecting with friends I have worked a little and had a lovely group of people who came to a Customer Service Workshop. One had hitchhiked from Tsitsikamma to spend the day with us, So many people take their education and learning for granted and I often come across people so thirsty for knowledge that they make great sacrifices and that this young woman had hitched a lift just to learn something that may help her be more successful in her career, just blew me away and I made sure I gave my presentation my all so that she would go home happy (and that she got home safely - I took her half way there). Also spent a morning at the hairdresser who declared that I have self- highlighting hair - A nice way to say I am going grey! Not to worry I have a lovely blue wig!
I have watched some Northern Humour - Peter Kay's Car Share - I think you have to be from the frozen north to understand northern humour - I just roll laughing - half the time at nothing! The action all takes place in a car as two supermarket employees are forced to lift share to work. Just love the street scenes and the northern faces. There are many walking talking Toby Jugs in the north!
I also saw a movie with Hugh Grant which was fine - Hugh is getting a bit a bit frayed around the edges - in looks and talent, but it was a sweet...predictable...safe....story! What has been far more dramatic are the orange, red, cerise and joyful skies each evening - Winter sunsets are just the best and I love the way the clouds get touched by pinks and apricots as the sun starts to fade - Sigh - I take this as further proof of Heaven as no human artist could create something so achingly lovely. So this week saw me racing for sunsets on the Schoenies road and jogging along the path as the sun sinks so quickly. I was doing just that when I noticed a couple on a bench obviously enjoying the view together on Sunday WHEN suddenly he went down on one knee - OMG I thought - I have stumbled across a proposal!!!! Till I saw him get his phone out and aim it at the horizon. I was a tad disappointed - I hope she wasn't.
What have I learned?
Well I am still learning to conquer solitude - I now tell myself I am not alone - I am facing my biggest fear - that makes me feel like a warrior! I must be braver than I think I am as I have booked a trip to Botswana and Zimbabwe in July.....alone! I have learned that gardening is hard work but it's the best feeling in the world to enjoy a quiet drink in the garden admiring an afternoon's handiwork. I have learned that absence doesn't make the heart grow fonder - it makes the heart ache! Missing you.......